A little more than a month ago Aldael nominated me for the Blogger Appreciation Award when award-tagging was still relatively hot (It has cooled down since). He shared how he works around things in his mind palace, and approaches with an overarching optimism & patient temperament, which is definitely a valuable lesson to think about. So apart from thanking him for the nomination, really I should be thanking him for the insight!
Thank you for including rules too:
- Thank the blogger who nominated you, link back to their site
- Write a paragraph of something positive about yourself
- Nominate and notify as many bloggers as you wish
- Use the award image
So… … something positive about myself?
I’d tell you that two minus makes a positive when multiplied together you know?
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The truth is, I’m a pessimist. I’m always considering the worst case scenarios when making decisions; I try for (and also hope for) the best, though I’m pretty much aware that I will mess up somewhere someplace somehow. It’s true that to err is human, but I think it is also true that its a little too excessive and I obsess over that. When it comes to being positive, I can fake it until it becomes real – so most of the time, I look and sound perfectly alright (It’s not even discernible in typing), I fool just about everyone – including myself.
But, that’s how it is for many people isn’t it? It isn’t just about pessimism. It can apply to anything else – Self-loathing; Lack of confidence; Shyness; Stubbornness; Overthinking, etc (anything along the same lines)…
Perhaps we can change ourselves, or maybe not.
For the latter it can haunt us until the terminus of our lifespan.
However, recognizing our weaknesses – the negativities of our very selves – give us an advantage over ignorance. And so maybe, a really big maybe, living with and controlling negativities can be better than changing altogether.
It isn’t really right to mention so much negativity when the purpose of this post is to share something positive. Here is where the circle completes though. People say “Two wrongs doesn’t make a right“, here I’m arguing with “Negativities make positivity“. While obsession and pessimism aren’t healthy habits, somehow the combination produces a loophole which I simply live with. Underneath all the excessive doubting, worrying, cursing, and silently developing lots of stress, my mind ultimately gives up and the stress meter no longer works. After which I simply get all chill for the mental stuff and go with the flow while pushing myself to the limits. And I’ll tell myself over and over that everything is alright (Some cases, it really isn’t and the consequences speak for themselves). Over time, that’s how I become really good at attaching false positive impressions in myself. It serves as a source of motivation, a dare to take risks, a relief to others, and softens the impact when things go south. When that happens, the pessimism kicks in again (stronger), and the whole cycle repeats, this time with reinforced motivation. When things go well, the positive mentality becomes real. In both cases, the pessimism doesn’t go away. However, it doesn’t take much for each event to trigger a learning node, which I end up adapting each time and applying to effect… Pretty much like machine learning. And I feel that’s how negatives make me a positive person (somewhat).
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I don’t really know if what I wrote sounds reasonable to any reader, its a case of ” If I omit all the parts on the negativities and mention only its positive derivatives, it would sound as lovely as RBC-chan and platelet-chan, but biologically the ‘surface’ doesn’t speak for the ‘bulk’ “. In the end, that’s how I am positive towards people, things and myself – living on a single thread of hope, faith, despair and doubt.
So if you ask if I am a bright and warm person – I may look like one (or sound like one) – but deep down I know I’m not. I’m just somebody who moulds and remoulds my personality many times over. Like… glass? It may take many more years before positivity becomes a default state, but for now, I’ll have to work with the recurrent pessimism by exercising optimism.
(Yeap, that’s why I like optimism!)
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While I’m really happy to be appreciated, I think it’s a lot more important to appreciate others, the things they do, the posts they make, and fundamentally your existence. I’m tempted to nominate bloggers to show my appreciation, but honestly everyone deserves the credit and appreciation (including bloggers whom I’ve not encountered yet). Hence I won’t be making direct nominations, but I do wish that for bloggers who have yet to be nominated for the Blogger Appreciation Award to pick up on this (if you’ve come across reading this) and mention something positive about themselves / share something positive in their own posting.
Spread the positivity and goodness. 🙂
Thanks for dropping by and reading, and as always,
Take care~
Acknowledgements:
1] “Appreciation Post: Thank you for what you do!” Gifs
*PS: Oh look I messed up the sketch, forgetting to draw the hands of AE3803. It looks pretty funny now.
Wonderful post and thanks for sharing something that personal. I tend to be an optimistic person myself, but I also know that at times I definitely do the same things that you do: telling myself things are, or will be allright. In the end though: I think you said it best yourself: to err is human.
Really enjoyed reading this post and hey one thing is definitely for sure: You deserved this award, an awful lot! 😊😊
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I think its kind of a double-edged sword still though 😦 Telling myself that things are alright like a motivation, even if I’m just faking the positive emotion… … It also creates a false sense of security.
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That makes it easy to guilt-trip myself if things screw up since I (lied?) to myself. I found myself doing that quite a lot before. I hate it that I think like this, because its negative (and also because it just sounds like I’m begging for pity).
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After going through numerous things, and making all these errors, I think I’ve improved from before, though not-there-yet.
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Honestly, having come onto the wordpress platform and meeting you & the other bloggers have helped in making me a lot more positive as a person (irl). So, really, thank you, and thank all of you. 🙂
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I’m not going to lie to you here, coming here on WordPress and meeting so many wonderful people (you are of course included if that wasn’t already obvious) is truly one of the best things that has happened to me (and quite frankly the best decision that I have ever made as well).
I guess I know what you mean by that doubel edged sword, but I can also say this: don’t be too hard on yourself. Things like this take time, and pat yourself on the back sometimes for the wonderful steps you have already made. It is something to be proud of, and well just so you know, after having read this post and this comment I can honestly say that I am proud of you 😊😊
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Thanks Raistlin, it all comes back to loving ourselves and moving forward with it I guess. Let us all continue to motivate each other plus motivate each other to motivate ourselves (whoops getting too messy there).
Once again, with utmost appreciation, thanks 🙂
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Good job
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Thank you!
Care to share something positive about yourself, or something positive that you experienced?
No worries, there’s no pressure. Also, you can go ahead and carry on with the appreciation award, but there’s no need to link back to me (you may if you still want to). It would be nice to spread more positivity. 🙂
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Okay. That is a good idea for a post. Thanks
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Always think it is okay to be negative, but sometimes yeah you can get trapped there. Thank you for this post 🙂
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Thank you Kimchi-様, I definitely did get stuck there multiple times before, and really have to thank my family for pulling me out of it during those occasions.
Now that I’m in the midst of my blogging adventure, I have all of you to thank for always being awesome and positive, which certainly has influenced me quite a bit.
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Thanks for visiting! 🙂
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It’s always such a shame to see a tag become a dead-end, so I’ll treat this as my moment to jump in.
The platelets are adorable as always. I just wanna give them a hug…
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Yes! Please do continue the tag! I wasn’t too sure if bloggers are okay with carrying on the chain tag, which was part of the reason I left it open for other bloggers to share theirs if they are alright with it. Main reason is that It might be a little too much to tag those who haven’t got tagged yet.
Looking forward to hearing what you’ll be sharing!
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Lovely post.
I have a peculiar relationship with positivity and negativity. I am very, very anxious the vast majority of the time, even about stupid things that ultimately don’t matter. As such, I have a bit of a habit of thinking negative things about life in general as well as myself.
Over time, I’ve sort of come to counterbalance this with conscious attempts to be positive, and to distance myself from negativity and cynicism where I have the capacity to do so. I’m currently taking a break from Twitter for this very reason, for example; that place is feeling particularly toxic right now, and not at all good for my mental health.
Those desires and attempts to be positive pretty much led to what my site is now. I had all these games that I’d absolutely loved playing that either hadn’t been explored at all by “big sites”, or, worse, had been written off for one reason or another. I made it my mission to “find the good” in even experiences that had been heavily criticised… and that’s where my perspective on the games I write about today comes from.
Of course, there are still things that are “bad” from the perspective of the fact that they simply don’t work properly… but rather than getting hung up on those, I just set them aside and move on. I’m yet to come across something I haven’t been able to find even a *little* bit of good in, and that’s something I quite like about myself.
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Hi Pete! Thanks for sharing your relationship with positivity and negativity! I agree with your method of distancing from negativity, and it’s good that you are conscious of the ‘bad’ aura and strive to maintain a healthy balance of positiveness by taking the appropriate action. I think that is really admirable, to be able to respond and also continue to seek positivity in a situation that is otherwise.
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From what you said, I think humans are quite hopeful creatures – not just that we hope and wish a lot – but also that there’s always something positive in each of us. Maybe it isn’t obvious, and perhaps it gets clouded by obsession with the negatives if that is what we simply want to ‘see’.
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Thanks for reminding us that there’s always something positive in anything/anyone, and that it is sometimes a matter of looking at it the ‘right’ way! 🙂
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And thank you! Keep doing what you do! Really appreciate the effort and content that you post always!
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